Is a 12 Step Program Right For Me
I am currently in an intensive out patient program. It is a 12 step based program and a cognitive behavioral type program. The latter I have no problem with I agree I have personal “defects” that could use improving the former is old news to me. I am 48 I have been in and out of several programs since I was 15.
Several times I’ve heard the phrase that insanity is doing the same thing over and over expecting a different outcome. I agree with this statement.
It is no small wonder why your ideals appeal to me. In group the other day I tried to explain that I had had an Ah Ha moment not revealing my source, I went on to explain that although I do believe in God I struggled with their watered down version of him that took away from me what mine “as I understood Him” had freely given me Free Will to be able to choose what control I allowed drugs ad alcohol to have over me.
I went on to explain that my goals had changed and that what I never let be a priority to me now was; My family, my self and my future. I was feeling great! I was shot down and was told I was in a dry drunk. I have anger issues so I expressed how I felt but of course I was in denial. I did not and will not let them sway me.
I would like to thank you for showing me what was already before me I just did not respect it. I know my journey is far from over and when I think it is I need to be cautious of that mindset. Before I told them of my moment of clarity I shared with them your RSA article on addiction myths to get their point of view.
At that time I respected their opinion and, I wanted to be certain that I wasn’t just hearing what I wanted to hear. They never got back to me about it. So I am not sure if they read it or are just avoiding a conflict with their doctrine. If you could take the time to reply to this I would be very grateful. Actually there is a part of me that feels sorry for them because they are stuck on an old mentality that forces them to see little success in their clients. And I feel sorry for the others in my group who are being misinformed to the point of being set up to fail.
It’s quite sad this as you know is a serious matter that is being ignored because of big money and plain ignorance.
Thanks again. [Name Redacted]
It means so much to me that I have offered you another path. For some people, just knowing there is another way can be — well, life saving. While you’re trying to conform to a philosophy that just doesn’t make sense to you (and not just you!), you are losing your best ally in your recovery — yourself!
You may (or may not) be able to open other people’s minds. But if you speak your own truth – saying other ways haven’t worked for you, but you believe this approach can, and you hope others can respect you in this — it may be hard for them to oppose you.
You are trying hard to do the best thing for yourself that you can, and at some level, everyone has to respect that.